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Friday, April 10, 2015

the truth behind post pregnancy

Soooooooooo......... I thought breastfeeding was supposed to make you lose weight. NOPE.. I think I'm actually eating more now than before when I was preggers. At least back then it went to the baby but now it's going ALL TO MY THIGHS, ARM AND STOMACH!!!!!!!!! And with two kids what time do you have? NONE. With all my free time I sneak in a nap or two so who has time to exercise? Not MEEEEEEEE!

I recently took pictures for Lena's baptism and I literally looked like a whale. LOL... okay maybe not really LOL but yeah LOL as in LOL FML. Ugh. I think with James it took me about 2 years to shed everything off... I'm hoping this time around it will get better... the chocolate bar I just ate won't probably be helpful but MANNNNNNNNN losing weight is hard especially when you are hungry all the time.

I keep telling myself "okay starting this Monday I'm going to work out" but it's really easier said than done. Maybe I can figure something out and start working out from home but I really need to get back in shape.

So to sum up this post:
1. BFing helps you lose weight in the beginning.. but you will gain most of it back.
2. There is not enough time when you are a SAHM.
3. Losing weight is hard.
4. Losing weight is hard.
5. Losing weight is hard.
6. Losing weight is hard.

The end.

BF = Breastfeeding
SAHM = Stay at home mom

anddddddddddd we're back!

After many thoughts I have decided to bring my blog back to life. So many things have been going on in my life that I really just didn't have the time for it, but I feel like my brain is going to eat itself if I don't jot down whatever is going on in my life.

Here are some updates:
- On December 2, 2014 my beautiful baby girl was born. I am SO in love with her it's not even funny. She is so calm and is such a bubbly baby. All she does is stare at me and smile.. and cry of course! But smile more (total opposite of James). She sleeps a lot which I am so thankful for (not throughout the night) and I couldn't ask for more. The funny thing is - with James I felt so guilty with him because I wasn't really attached to him until he was a lot older and my love for him was growing.. I guess it was the same for my daughter but it happened a lot faster.

Here is a topic I wanted to talk about: co-sleeping.
Maybe it's because I was raised that way or maybe it's my culture, but I stinkin' love co-sleeping. I did it with James (after the 2nd month) and I am doing it with my daughter. Currently all four of us sleep in the same bed, and I love feeling both of their feet on me while I'm sleeping. Yes my husband and I don't sleep next to each other but he was never a "cuddler" anyways. He would always be sleeping on the far edge of the bed while I would be cuddling with a blanket or a pillow but James on the other hand loveeeeeeeeeees to cuddle! Right before he sleeps he comes cuddling next to me or falls asleep hugging my arm.... how could you NOT love that? I mean... they do only stay little for so long and once they get older I'm pretty sure they won't sleep with us even if I begged them to so why not take advantage of this time? :)

People talk about "SIDS" but recently research showed that SIDS are at higher risk when the babies are in a separate room.. I guess it depends on the parents too though. I am a light sleeper so I also don't move around much when I sleep.

Anyways on the other hand, I am super excited for our upcoming trip to Disneyworld! It's our first getaway as a family of four and I know James will love it. I think he was too young when we went to Disneyland last year, but I am so looking forward to his expressions when he sees Mickey Mouse again.

I wish May can come sooner!

Monday, December 1, 2014

haven't blogged in almost a year! (this is going to be a long one i can feel it already)

happy december!

i can't believe it's been a year since i haven't updated this blog. sorry! having a two year old while working.. i guess i just haven't had the time to really sit down and write.. even though writing is one of the many things i enjoy doing.

a quick update on 2014:
- we celebrated james' second birthday (time flies)
- dennis and i finallyyy had our wedding ceremony on the 16th of february. it was held at fox hollow country club and the venue itself was gorgeous. to top it all off everything was up to par so i was more than satisfied with our overall experience. dennis also had the wafles and dinges truck to come for dessert so that was exciting too!
- God has blessed us with another baby - this time it's a girl!.. and she's scheduled to come out tomorrow!

so yes... that is one of the reasons why i am probably blogging at 1am. i am about 85% done cleaning and getting ready for baby lena and i just don't feel confident that i will do a good job. i wonder if it's normal to feel that way.

instead of feeling excited, anxious and happy i feel worried and guilty.. guilty that i will not show james enough attention, or guilty that i won't be a good mom to both lena and james. i'm scared that i won't love them equally and that i might favor one over the other.. i just don't feel confident this time around and i'm not sure why that is.

either way, i am blessed to have another addition to our family (a girl! finally!) and to be honest i am really glad that my pregnancy will soon be over. with james, i had a really easy pregnancy with no complications what so ever but this time around, it was hard! i will always cherish the times when she was in my belly but now it's time for a new chapter and now the long wait is over.

hopefully these feelings are just temporary and once she comes out i'm back to being a super mom! one more day -- here we go :)

here are some pictures of 2014: