MNF

when i first started dating my husband, it was clear to me that he was one of them "sports dude".. he was especially passionate about football. he brought me to his draft that year and i had no idea what was going on and thought to myself, "damn.. why are people so serious about this shit?" that was the year i was introduced to football and thought it was pretty entertaining.. the following year i joined the league and was runner up to my husband due to the ridiculous trades i made. but even though i had a team to manage i was still pretty clueless about the game.. i guess it was more of like a learning process.

this year, the second year in the league.. i've been watching more football and it's been growing on me. i've learned more about the players, and about the game and now i understand why people are so passionate about this sport. so today, my husband and i were watching the usual monday night football (i placed a bet on the packers winning) and while we were watching, we were arguing about something to a point where i didn't want to talk to him. but that silent treatment ended at the end of the 4th quarter.. right when it hit the 0:00 mark. why? because... the ball... was fucking..... intercepted.... (please excuse my french) but these substitute refs decided to call it a *drum roll* TOUCHDOWN. the funny thing here is: that they reviewed the play, and still decided that it was a TD. see.. millions of people all over the nation were watching this game, and we see what the refs are watching.. and everyone thought that it was a TD.. i mean. clearly, it was. soo........ does that mean all of america... are blind? i'm confused.

the referee on the right is gonna get shitted on for the rest of his life.. sorry to say...

i understand that some people might not come to an agreement. but this is different. you can't take this situation so lightly. these substitute "refs" have been making really bad calls lately but this is the final straw. it's affecting the die hard fans, the viewers, the spirit.. the WHOLE ENTIRE GAME, and EVERYTHING that has to do with it. how can the players have the patience for this? and don't they understand that this goes on the record?? ONE game can change EVERYTHING, and the sad part about it is that... it wasn't any of players fault. you NFL fuckers want to save that much money?? well guess what!! you're about to lose more because people are gonna stop watching football if it's a joke! seriously i don't think i've ever been this mad over a game!.. okay maybe besides the pacquiao fight (btw he def. got robbed too).

i was telling my husband that if i was the seahawks coach and i saw the replay, i would've fessed up and told them that we lost. why? because as a coach that's the right thing to do. i don't want no FAKE pity win. that win is a fake win. if you want to be a winner you should win with dignity and not feel guilty about winning.

on the OTHER note, i give all my respect to the packers coach because that man is the most classiest person on this planet right now. for him to hold his tongue, and tell the reporters that he doesn't want to talk about it and want to avoid drama, KUDOS for you mr. mccarthy. as for football, i'm done watching this pathetic game until the refs come back.

full time mom

all happy smiles and giggles aside, i am going to air it out and tell you guys how it really is.. HARD!!!!!!! sometimes it's really frustrating! like when i'm trying to make lunch but the baby is crying... and he needs my attention. not only that, he is teething so he is super cranky and fussy. he take cat naps which doesn't help, but you know what.. i still wouldn't change it for the world.

but by having james i'm learning a lot more about myself.. and what kind of life i've been living, or what kind of people i was surrounding myself with.. or what i'm capable of doing and not capable of doing. i'm learning how to be more patient, and also realizing that i am NOT superwoman. trying to juggle everything all at once.. being a mom and a wife, is harder than i thought but this is what i wanted.

i am not perfect, nobody is.. so i guess it is normal for me to feel this way. and as for my "surroundings", something has got to change... i cannot stand being in this situation anymore. i need to be in a better place with positive energy.. no more of this bs!

being myself??

sometimes, i just want to be blunt about everything and anything, but i know that it's better to stay quiet. but it gets really frustrating when people don't have any common sense! weren't we all born with it? i guess not?! THINK BEFORE YOU SAY SOMETHING. PEOPLE have feelings and the way you say things can HURT people. i need to vent.

i feel like some people are so selfish and ungrateful. no matter how hard i try, it comes to a point where i didn't "try hard enough", or "it's not really trying". why do i care so much about what other people think of me? why do i have to hold back on the things that i want to say or want to do? why do i have to go out of my way, and sacrifice the things that i like to do so i can be accommodating to other people who don't really give a fuck? why do i even bother.

sometimes i wish i had the heart to be like fuck you and fuck off, i don't really care about what you think about me, but i don't know why i care. i care so much about how other people will think about me, and how they will judge me. but i realized.. that it's just hurting me. i'm the only one who's getting stressed out. it's only affecting me.

SO, with that being said.. from now on, i'm going to say what i want to say, and not hold back. ok not maybe want to say, but NEED to say. i'm not going to care about my image. who do i need to look good for anyways, right? because if you were my true friend you would love me for who i am. and if you don't, then you can go fuck yourself because i don't give a shit anymore.

to all you stupid, ungrateful, selfish, unappreciative, no common sense dumb-asses out there, please. check yourself. look around you. this is why you have NO FRIENDS!!!!!!!!