all happy smiles and giggles aside, i am going to air it out and tell you guys how it really is.. HARD!!!!!!! sometimes it's really frustrating! like when i'm trying to make lunch but the baby is crying... and he needs my attention. not only that, he is teething so he is super cranky and fussy. he take cat naps which doesn't help, but you know what.. i still wouldn't change it for the world.
but by having james i'm learning a lot more about myself.. and what kind of life i've been living, or what kind of people i was surrounding myself with.. or what i'm capable of doing and not capable of doing. i'm learning how to be more patient, and also realizing that i am NOT superwoman. trying to juggle everything all at once.. being a mom and a wife, is harder than i thought but this is what i wanted.
i am not perfect, nobody is.. so i guess it is normal for me to feel this way. and as for my "surroundings", something has got to change... i cannot stand being in this situation anymore. i need to be in a better place with positive energy.. no more of this bs!
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