au revior, Silver Spring....

as i'm sitting in the office writing my last post in Silver Spring, MD... i'm kinda getting sad. :( who'd knew this day would come so fast? too bad we couldn't stay til our lease was up... but MD / DC treated us very well. ESPECIALLY our apartment. lol~ God... that apt. spoiled me. wah...! one day we'll be back... i'm going to miss working here with the people i enjoy working with, taking the metro down to DC, walking to Giant whenever i got hungry.... sighhhhh. i'm going to miss the dimsum in Oriental East, or the even the cheap Chinese lunch specials. man... i'll stop here. my hormones are getting to me i think i might tear! haha~~

goodbye from the 20910. <3 we'll be back soon! :)

happy anniversary to the best couple in the world!

(sorry, all of my pictures are in my NY home, so i'll post them up next time.. the only pictures that i brought were these 3!)

the loves of my life.. i remember when i was young i used to think that my parents were SO annoying. i didn't know why they were always on my case.. well actually only my mom because my father was very cold. i didn't even exist in his life.. LOL literally. he never asked how school was, and he never asked shit like if i had done all my homework. he was just the person who'd scold me and yell at me if i did something wrong.. and he'd also be the person who'd pick me up from school. sometimes he'd bring me mcdonalds or something when he knew i was hungry. (yes, even in elementary school. he came to my school and gave it to my principal who then gave it to me during lunch time!) he'd sometimes take me out to sizzlers, but our meals would always be quiet. my dad always did things for me behind my back.. never the type to show me love directly. my mom on the other hand, was ALL UP IN MY BUSINESSSS. always checking my hands if i smoked, and if she  thought something was suspicious she'd go onnnn and onnnnnnnnnnnnnnn about how she was once young and she knows what i'm doing but it's so stupidddd and blahblahblah. 

but... i never really took advantage of them. 

 

they weren't the strict parents who expected me to get straight A's in school, or who expected me to be home at a certain time. i think that's why even though i hung out i never lost respect for them and went home every single day.. (except for this one time when my friend's mom made up some bs about how i was in the precinct when i was actually on my way home.. but when my dad left me that threatening voice msg on my pager i was shitting bricks to go home.) i know i put my parents through a shiiiiiiiiiiiit load of crap. un-necessary crap? maybe.. but i guess it was all part of growing up..? but compared to most of my friends i wasn't THE FUCK UP. i did pretty well in school, graduated high school, went to college.. even though i became a college drop out. all talk aside though- i don't know how they put up with it.. i think that if my daughter behaved the way i did.. idk. i would've locked her up or something. LOL~ no but seriously.. i think that is why i grew out of "this life" so quickly and instead started respecting my parents a lot more and started to understand them. now i have created a special bond with my parents. they are like my best friends. my cold hearted father... isn't so cold hearted anymore. he is actually very cute.. BUT ONLY when my mother is around, which is sorta weird.. bc without her we clash.. we clash 247. but now its to a point where i feel so bad after i arguing with him. instead of cursing and slamming the door i actually become very upset and start crying. is it because he's getting old? i don't know... my mom thinks i've become a grandma at heart. which i think at times is true. bleh. anyways... my best friends in the whole wide world, you guys were totally meant for each other. i want to thank you for having me in this world, and want to thank you for everything you've done for me. i love you guys SOSOSOSOOOo much! and if i were supposed to come back into this world again, i would def. want to be raised by you guys.. the best parents on earth<3

paranormal activity?

okay so... dennis and i have been joking about our apt about how there's a ghost living with us because sometimes it smells like somebody died in our laundry room. but lately.. some weird shit has been happening. it all started when i closed my laptop and all of a sudden the calendar that was sitting on the corner decided to fall. my husband thinks it because i moved the table, but i didn't move the table!! anyways.. the loud bang scared us because it fell onto the printer. then, two nights ago before we were going to fall asleep i noticed a light at the corner of my closet. i asked if he had turned it on, and he said no... again, he has no reason to. but i thought the light wasn't on.. it couldn't have been because nobody went in it.. but before going to the bathroom i opened the door, and the light was.. on... T_T
ok. so last night.. i was going to the bathroom to wash up and i don't know why but i decided to open my closet door and the light was.. on... again. no idea why. being freaked out i was heading towards the bathroom where dennis was washing up and as i was walking and asking him about the light, the fuse decided to go out. ONLY IN THE BATHROOM, AND IN MY BEDROOM. and the water was still running so i almost had a heart attack. literally... almost had a heart attack. i grabbed onto dennis and i didn't let go. no.. i couldn't let go. luckily dennis has the gift of falling asleep in .05 seconds but i couldn't sleep at all yesterday... T____________T

i'm scared... good thing tonight is our last night in Maryland! actually no.. i take that back. i will miss this place...... :( this apartment was SO cozy and it was so "us". boohooooo.......

happy hump day!

i cannot get enough of them.. so cute!! :) "oh ohhhhh"

anyways, spent some time packing yesterday.. and we were thinking of all the good times we had in this apt. it's kinda scary how 8 months already flew by so quickly. gees... and in the morning after dennis said hello to my baby bump, he asked, "are we already half way through?" TIME FLIES!!!!!!!! why can't there be a pause button in life? meh.. anyways must get ready for work. btw, my stomach is getting bigger by the days, and i'm not sure if the baby is kicking or not, but i felt something! felt like he/she was poking/flicking me! sooo interestingggg.. will post up baby bump & sonogram pictures later!

super tired

i like to sleep in general, but these days... oh my GOODNESS........... all i wanna do is stay home and rest. don't wanna move.. don't wanna get out of bed... i am SUPER lazy and tired......... today i slept in til 12.. and then took a nap with dennis from 5-8. and now... i'm tired.......... again.......... T________T gyno told me that it's normal.. and that i shouldn't fight it. but this.. is getting ridiculous!!!!!!!!!! ok off to bed i go. :(

GOD delivers!

so being a born christian, i was raised to pray before i eat and sleep. usually it's the repeating of the same thing like.. "dear Lord, thank you for this wonderful food." or "dear Lord, thank you for this wonderful day.. please forgive all the sins i've committed today." but these days, the list of things that i pray for has gotten longer. i pray for my family, my brother and sister in law and the kids, dennis' family, the move.. my pregnancy, and my money issue. and guess what! my prayers had been answered. unbelievable..

i think the most important part also was that-- i didn't worry.  my husband, on the other side was worried and stressed. i told him that it wasn't going to solve anything.. which is true! i know sometimes it's inevitable BUT honestly it's just going to damage you emotionally, physically, and mentally.. without any conclusions. so i kept telling him not to worry and that everything will fall into place, because i truly believed that he was listening and i know he's looking out for us.. and he proved me right.

i remember up until recently all i used to do was worry and stress.. but after changing how i think, my life is SO comfortable and my mind feels so free. yes i'll admit sometimes i do worry about things but how can i not? but on the most part, i don't or i try not to.. because i know my life is already set. i just have to find the pieces and put the puzzle together.

anyways, life is good on this gloomy monday. is it finally raining? i hope it'll clear some of the humidity. it was DISGUSTING the past couple of days... ugh.


on the other note,
the husband and i sat down last night and did some productive things. we created our monthly budget because we will now be having a joint account.. WHY IS AMERICA ALL ABOUT CREDIT AND STUPID SHIT LIKE THAT? ffffffff!

oh.. we ALSO created the list of who we're going to invite to our wedding. we were trying REALLY HARD to stay at the 100 mark.. but we went a little overboard.

PLANNING STARTS NOW!!!!!

my last Sunday in Silver Spring, MD. :(

stayed up til 4am playing CIV 5, munching on grapes and pop chips.. i am so tired today. woke up at 1230pm when i had a brunch date at 1 with my friend & her hubby (they're sweethearts). and frank! decided to go eat dimsum.. again ;) @ oriental east. today we tried a new type of dumpling-- it was SO good. it was chewy and crispy on the outside, and the filling was with pork or shrimp. YUMMY-LICIOUS. i wish i had taken my camera, but i didn't. :( i think we got 4 plates? or 5 of just those dumplings. we also had congee, pork shu-mai, shrimp with rice cakes? chinese broccoli, shrimp dumplings, shrimp dumplings with vegetables, beef chow fun, and garlic spare ribs. overall the meal was very filling and delicious! after the eating we came home to show the apt to some people (i think we might've sold it!) and played shuffle board at our club room. the game got pretty intense. haha fun times~~ afterwards we went upstairs to figure out what available showings there were for "horrible bosses". we get our movie tickets for $7.50 from our leasing office. cool, right? (I AM REALLY going to miss living here.) so we went to the movie theater, and it was pretty packed. sat kinda in the front.. and i'm not going to lie, it was kinda annoying but the movie itself was FRICKEN HILLAAAAAAARIOUS! it sorta reminded me of "the hangover" but yea.. it was funny. i think 80% of the time i was laughing. now the pizzza came, so i will have to end my post here.. but yes. i am very tired.. all thanks to video games. today was a fun day though.. good times, with good company. LOVES IT<3

feels like 108? wtf. time to blog!

i don't know what mother nature has been on lately, but she has got to chill out. not only was the weather in the winter time so wacked out but seriously.. this heat wave has got to go! anyways, so many things have been on my mind lately, and i feel like the only place where i can really take it out on is on my blog. lol~

#1. my pregnancy. - as the days go by, i am getting more excited to see my baby boy! i am SUPER excited about his futre, and am so curious on how he will look like. i can't wait for him to take his first steps, to hear him speak for the first time, his first day of school.. etc, etc. i hope i will be a good mother. James!! mommy and daddy are patiently waiting for you!!!!!<3 but i will not lie.. we are already hoping that our second child will be a girl! LOL.

#2. my future. - i have obtained my esthetician license last year but never had a chance to utilize it. i cannot wait to get in that field and start my career so i can finally gain enough experience to open up my own spa. i haven't come up with a name yet, but i've been done with making / setting my long term goals. i already know what / where i will put things, how my waiting room will look like, and what kind of entertainment / specials i will have. i hope i get started on this soon, because i would like both of my parents to retire and just stay at home!!!

#3. people who judge me. - i know some people who look down on me, and may think i don't know much about this world. it is true. i don't really follow up on current events, don't know many facts about this world, and maybe my english sucks because my vocabulary is so limited. but guess what- during the 25 years that i've been living on this shitty place called earth, i bet i have more life experince than any of you who are reading my blog. i can sit in front of a person and talk about my life for hours but still nobody will ever understand what i had to go through, and nobody will know the REAL me. maybe except for my dad. he knows that i try to cover up my true side by acting childish, and by letting people think that i don't know much.. for instance, when people start talking about shit that i already know about, i am not the type of person to be like "yeah - i already know that.." but instead i'm the person to be like "oh.. really? cool. i never knew that!" weird, i know. but that's just how i am. some people think i'm too opened with my life.. but in reality, there's a LOT of things that i keep to myself. my friends, my family, even my husband.. probably only knows about 70% of me. i'm not trying to brag, but i think i'm better than a lot of people that i know of, and i think i'm very unique.. and also special. yes, you can be successful and be making 6 figures. yes, you might have a college degree from a banging school, and yes, you might come from a filthy rich family. but i honestly don't think that any of that can compared to what I KNOW about this world, and what i've witnessed. in conclusion, this whole experience of mine made me become a very deep thinker.. VERY very deep thinker. so i would like it if people didn't underestimate my knowledge, or better yet.. me in general because remember.. in my mind- i'm still better than you. it's not that i THINK i'm better than you, but i KNOW that i'm better than you, and i def. KNOW a lot more than you do.

#4. relocating. - i honestly cannot wait til i move back to NY. i think i took my hometown for granted.. after moving to MD, i realized that there is no place like home!! it's so convenient living in a city where you know you can get anything whether it's 3pm, or it's 3am. loves it~~ once a new yorker, always a new yorker!!!!

video games

i'm not a crazy hardcore gamer, but i do enjoy playing video games. i'd much rather stay in and play video games than going out in the freezing cold / hot blazing summer weather. why go out deal with the craziness of mother nature when you can stay home and relax? muaha. anyways, so these days i've been hooked on CIV 5. i started playing single player, and finally started playing multiplayer with the hubs. it's pretty interesting.. it's basically a turn based game where you start off as a leader of a nation. right now i'm playing as washington.. (i randomed!) i expanded and made 4 more cities, and it took a while only because these germans (the computer) decided to declare war on me in the first 10 minutes of the game! ugh. but i think i will get sick of this game soon.. does anyone recommend anything else? :P

new york state of mind

i'm dying to go back home.. FOR GOOD, but it's frustrating because we haven't found a person who'd want to take over our lease. :( ahh.. New York! i miss everything about it. the yellow cabs, the busy streets, the beautiful skyline, papaya's $1 hotdogs, 2 bro's pizza, st. mark's, the delicious food! mmmmmmm. can't wait, can't wait! i've been begging Dennis if we can move to somewhere where we can see the skyline at night, and he was thinking Long Island City, but i was thinking more like Weehawken.. or maybe even Brooklyn? we'll see.. but that's future talk. haha but look.. isn't it so pretty?

see you tonight, NYC!

hellooo nurse!

i've been eating lots of junk food lately, and i think it caught up to me. especially when Dennis isn't home i tend to not eat which is really bad for my health.. not only my health, but our baby's health! so i got really sick on sunday, and i was planning to sleep til like 9pm since i got NO SLEEP AT ALL the night before.. but Dennis woke me up around 230 and told me i have to eat something and promised me that he'll let me sleep after, so i woke up to find delicious jook on the table! Frank had slept over the night before, so they both went out to giant and bought some stuff for themselves. i told him i wanted to drink something refreshing so he also got me some pineapple juice. loveloveloveeeee being pampered! also for dinner he made stir fry which was really good with veggies that i love. i have the best husband ever!

what the guys ate.. here's the caption for you, Frank!
"F BEN'S CHILLI BOWL"
i'd have to agree though.. your chili was pretty awesome~

my foood~~ loved it<3

dinner<3

veggies!

HP7

honestly.. i don't like to read. yes, magazines included unless it's something really interesting from the cosmo (i basically just look through the pictures). ANYWAYS, went to go watch HP7 last night, and it was the best!!! so intense! ESP. because i didn't read any of the books. (yes, i know the book are way better but the movie is just fine so please stop telling me to read the fucking books the size of that thing intimidates the shit out of me.) i had a blast. there was a scene though where the 3d part got screwed up and everyone thought it was supposed to be like that, or they just didn't care because the movie became 3d again after about 5 minutes.. but as we were leaving the theater the staff gave out free imax tickets apologizing for the inconvenience. loved it!

so about the movie.. i feel like at some parts they could've made it more dramatic? and i don't understand why Snape wasn't there when hp was in the forest. if anything he was looking out for him from day 1! so surprised at that too. and it's so cool how the cast of HP grew so much. they were like little babies! now they're so mature and omg Hermione is sooooo pretty. i love her~ sigh.. i think i will just have to go watch it again.. can't get enough of it~

i guess he liked it.. so he put a ring on it!

pictures from the unexpected beautiful ceremony we had. :) we're planning to have a real / bigger ceremony in October of 2012! thanks to hyunjoo unnie, my hubs & april for this day. <3

on tuesday after coming back from court! we ate at Jing Fong. their dimsum was yummy! we had like 11 dishes and the bill came out to $27.

my wonderful cousins<3

dennis being so worn out haha~

the "before" dress~

my cousin @ work! i really envy the passion that she has for what she does.

seamless.com is the best creation ever.

trying on the dress!

the "after" dress!

on wednesday 6/30.

love her<3

happy esther :)

group pic

exchanging our vows..

"do you guys have rings to exchange?"
esther: "no"
dennis: "yes"

i was very surprisedddddd!!

courtesy of dennis' mom<3 so sweet!

his ring :)

<3

couldn't stop crying!!

the love of my life<3

"you may now kiss the bride!"

they actually have a picture of the city hall in the back so u can take pictures. puahaha
we had fun~ <3

i couldn't jump that high bc of my retarded knee T_T

@ the wedding garden

walking to the bridge~

we're married!!

calling my mom, telling her about the "ring" story! she loved it :)

me and my friend.. who will always be my twin. lol....

this picture is so cool!!!

this one is cool too!!

hyunjoo unnie & i<3

us 3 <3

thank you!! again<3 i will never forget this day!!