long overdue update

hi all, sorry i haven't been blogging recently! so much has been going on, and i was putting this to the side! anyways, the past month.. sooo many things has happened! first off, i turned 27!! (yay) haha. i think i officially stopped celebrating after 25. maybe i'll do something big at 30.. but after 25, i feel like it's the same. :\ so on my birthday hubby took me out for a nice dinner, and honestly we're just trying to save up for our upcoming wedding ceremony next year that we're trying to budget~ i was just happy to spend some time with him alone~ :)

i've also been going on interviews left and right because i really want to start working again, and it's been tough because i haven't heard back from most of them... until!! i finally got a job! i'm actually really excited to work because i've been seeing listings on craigslist for this job and i thought it'd be really cool if i worked there.. i did apply to a couple but never heard back from them until last week.. and i got the job! i'll be working for equinox as an esthetician. i was surprised that they have a spa, but it looks really nice and i'm super happy that i'm going to start working again.

yesterday was mothers day- happy late mothers day to all you mothers out there! i think being a mother will be the toughest job i ever have. honestly i still look at my baby and sometimes i think to myself, "is this real..?" sometimes it just all seems like a dream. everyday he surprises me with the way he thinks and with his actions and i can't believe he's growing up so fast. i remember the first two months i was such a mess.. i didn't even have any time to eat or shower because i had no idea what to do with the baby and everything was so new to me, but if i had to do it all over again i definetely would. i know it's only been almost a year and a half since he's been brought into this world, but i'm SO curious for what the future has for him and want to fast forward so i can take a little sneak peak at it, but on the other hand i want time to pause or be in slow motion because i literaly want to cherish all this time i have with him.

i know that it will only get harder and there will be major obsticals i have to overcome to become a better mother.. but james has taught me that there are no limits when it comes down to him. now i know how my mom feels about her children and what she had to go through.. all the sacrifices she made for us.. i truely admire her and i'm so blessed to have a role model like her. it must've been so hard raising a wild child like me~ haha :P

love you mom. i love you so much. you are my best friend, and my back bone. thank you for your unconditional love and always supporting me in whatever i do. the love and respect i have for you.. words cannot express. love you love you LOVE you!!!!!!!!!!! <3

GOD delivers!

so being a born christian, i was raised to pray before i eat and sleep. usually it's the repeating of the same thing like.. "dear Lord, thank you for this wonderful food." or "dear Lord, thank you for this wonderful day.. please forgive all the sins i've committed today." but these days, the list of things that i pray for has gotten longer. i pray for my family, my brother and sister in law and the kids, dennis' family, the move.. my pregnancy, and my money issue. and guess what! my prayers had been answered. unbelievable..

i think the most important part also was that-- i didn't worry.  my husband, on the other side was worried and stressed. i told him that it wasn't going to solve anything.. which is true! i know sometimes it's inevitable BUT honestly it's just going to damage you emotionally, physically, and mentally.. without any conclusions. so i kept telling him not to worry and that everything will fall into place, because i truly believed that he was listening and i know he's looking out for us.. and he proved me right.

i remember up until recently all i used to do was worry and stress.. but after changing how i think, my life is SO comfortable and my mind feels so free. yes i'll admit sometimes i do worry about things but how can i not? but on the most part, i don't or i try not to.. because i know my life is already set. i just have to find the pieces and put the puzzle together.

anyways, life is good on this gloomy monday. is it finally raining? i hope it'll clear some of the humidity. it was DISGUSTING the past couple of days... ugh.


on the other note,
the husband and i sat down last night and did some productive things. we created our monthly budget because we will now be having a joint account.. WHY IS AMERICA ALL ABOUT CREDIT AND STUPID SHIT LIKE THAT? ffffffff!

oh.. we ALSO created the list of who we're going to invite to our wedding. we were trying REALLY HARD to stay at the 100 mark.. but we went a little overboard.

PLANNING STARTS NOW!!!!!