i don't know what mother nature has been on lately, but she has got to chill out. not only was the weather in the winter time so wacked out but seriously.. this heat wave has got to go! anyways, so many things have been on my mind lately, and i feel like the only place where i can really take it out on is on my blog. lol~
#1. my pregnancy. - as the days go by, i am getting more excited to see my baby boy! i am SUPER excited about his futre, and am so curious on how he will look like. i can't wait for him to take his first steps, to hear him speak for the first time, his first day of school.. etc, etc. i hope i will be a good mother. James!! mommy and daddy are patiently waiting for you!!!!!<3 but i will not lie.. we are already hoping that our second child will be a girl! LOL.
#2. my future. - i have obtained my esthetician license last year but never had a chance to utilize it. i cannot wait to get in that field and start my career so i can finally gain enough experience to open up my own spa. i haven't come up with a name yet, but i've been done with making / setting my long term goals. i already know what / where i will put things, how my waiting room will look like, and what kind of entertainment / specials i will have. i hope i get started on this soon, because i would like both of my parents to retire and just stay at home!!!
#3. people who judge me. - i know some people who look down on me, and may think i don't know much about this world. it is true. i don't really follow up on current events, don't know many facts about this world, and maybe my english sucks because my vocabulary is so limited. but guess what- during the 25 years that i've been living on this shitty place called earth, i bet i have more life experince than any of you who are reading my blog. i can sit in front of a person and talk about my life for hours but still nobody will ever understand what i had to go through, and nobody will know the REAL me. maybe except for my dad. he knows that i try to cover up my true side by acting childish, and by letting people think that i don't know much.. for instance, when people start talking about shit that i already know about, i am not the type of person to be like "yeah - i already know that.." but instead i'm the person to be like "oh.. really? cool. i never knew that!" weird, i know. but that's just how i am. some people think i'm too opened with my life.. but in reality, there's a LOT of things that i keep to myself. my friends, my family, even my husband.. probably only knows about 70% of me. i'm not trying to brag, but i think i'm better than a lot of people that i know of, and i think i'm very unique.. and also special. yes, you can be successful and be making 6 figures. yes, you might have a college degree from a banging school, and yes, you might come from a filthy rich family. but i honestly don't think that any of that can compared to what I KNOW about this world, and what i've witnessed. in conclusion, this whole experience of mine made me become a very deep thinker.. VERY very deep thinker. so i would like it if people didn't underestimate my knowledge, or better yet.. me in general because remember.. in my mind- i'm still better than you. it's not that i THINK i'm better than you, but i KNOW that i'm better than you, and i def. KNOW a lot more than you do.
#4. relocating. - i honestly cannot wait til i move back to NY. i think i took my hometown for granted.. after moving to MD, i realized that there is no place like home!! it's so convenient living in a city where you know you can get anything whether it's 3pm, or it's 3am. loves it~~ once a new yorker, always a new yorker!!!!
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